[Coming on strong is one way of putting it. It's simply not something Hermes expected to hear, let alone have to process. What now? G'raha had been nothing but kind to him, a kindred spirit if you will. He doesn't want to dissolve the contract - that would be of no use to him. If anything, it would be detrimental to them both.]
...I fear there is much I do not know, so much so I feel lost in the dark at times. Both Hythlodaeus and yourself are from so far in the future I can scarcely imagine how much you've experienced and how many tales you've to tell.
[Which makes him feel distant when he thinks about it. He's missing things and he knows he's missing things. Would knowing more really help him though?]
[ It would not help him as far as Emet-Selch is concerned. It would surely, definitely make everything worse. Hermes was not the type who could cope with knowing his role in the end. ]
Perhaps not. That makes you no less than us though, and no less capable of being vigilant.
[ He doesn't bother trying to hide his big dramatic sigh ]
He told me he would do all in his power to free Elidibus, should we return home. That he would suggest such a courtesy tells me there are things I do not know as well.
...I promised that I would keep him safe and do what I could within my power to provide for him. I intend to keep my word.
[If there was one thing Hermes could be counted on it was to keep his word, for better or worse.]
Talk of future events...admittedly it confuses me a great deal. I do not wish to think badly of G'raha but I will keep in mind there is more to him than what I know. Still, he is now my responsibility...and I intend to carry it out.
Hermes, calm down. I am confident you will be fine. The only thing unpleasant about you is your fiercely insistent lack of self-esteem. [ And how you broke all the rules and triggered the final days ]
Besides, I have seen how he is with the company he keeps. He values friendship highly. To a rather stupid degree, in fact. I think he will be attached to you in no time.
Would that I could return to the moment I was asked to accept my nomination...I wish that I would have the courage to reject it. Amaurot is an impressive city and nothing can compare to it...but it is an environment I have never found myself feeling comfortable in.
[ Emet-Selch pauses a moment, and then sighs. It doesn't matter, he thinks. Whether Hermes becomes Fandaniel or not, Meteion is there, her sisters have been sent from the star, their paradise is already scripted for doom. ]
Your work on the Convocation would hardly bar you from being in Elpis. Several seats spend quite a fair amount of time there, need I point out the Words of Lahabrea, or Mitron? Even the Emissary spent time there. We would not be asking you to abandon your comforts. Far from it. You fret too much.
That may be so...but I would not have been able to take Meteion with me, nor does the thought of replacing my mentor sit well - it causes me great distress to think about, even though I know it is pointless now.
[Since none of this matters. Nothing matters. Hello existentialism...]
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...I fear there is much I do not know, so much so I feel lost in the dark at times. Both Hythlodaeus and yourself are from so far in the future I can scarcely imagine how much you've experienced and how many tales you've to tell.
[Which makes him feel distant when he thinks about it. He's missing things and he knows he's missing things. Would knowing more really help him though?]
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Perhaps not. That makes you no less than us though, and no less capable of being vigilant.
[ He doesn't bother trying to hide his big dramatic sigh ]
He told me he would do all in his power to free Elidibus, should we return home. That he would suggest such a courtesy tells me there are things I do not know as well.
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[If there was one thing Hermes could be counted on it was to keep his word, for better or worse.]
Talk of future events...admittedly it confuses me a great deal. I do not wish to think badly of G'raha but I will keep in mind there is more to him than what I know. Still, he is now my responsibility...and I intend to carry it out.
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[ Hmph. All he's asking is that G'raha not sweet talk Hermes into betraying them all. Again. ]
Simply remember. That is all I ask.
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[Which is the truth, despite how depressed he sounds.]
I just want to be of use to someone when it comes to being contracted.
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[ Look he takes no pleasure in making Hermes sad, he hopes that he realizes this. ]
Of course. I'm sure he is grateful.
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He is. He's quite kind and thoughtful. I will admit it was an impulsive offer on my part to contract but I do believe it will benefit both of us.
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I hope he remains that way with you.
[ Though that last comment interests him. ]
Ah yes, you were feeling rather bold recently weren't you?
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Far too bold. I cannot believe how I was acting. I am deeply embarrassed just thinking about it.
[Perhaps the worst part is he can't remember most of it, thanks to getting blackout drunk with Hythlodaeus so many times...]
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[ He thinks Hermes could stand to be bold more often, tbh. But not in a "I am going to fight you because you want to take Meteion away" sort of way. ]
Not the parts with me in them, anyway.
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[Cause it wasn't. Not at all. Quite the opposite really.]
On the contrary it was quite exciting...
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[ He waves a hand dismissively, not that Hermes can see it. ]
But yes. It was... far more exciting than this talk of that miqo'te.
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[Look he's not suicidal (yet).]
I really need this contract to work, Emet-Selch. What if he decides I am unpleasant to be around and leaves? I will be without anyone once more.
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[ Yet...
Emet-Selch sighs a little. ]
Hermes, calm down. I am confident you will be fine. The only thing unpleasant about you is your fiercely insistent lack of self-esteem. [ And how you broke all the rules and triggered the final days ]
Besides, I have seen how he is with the company he keeps. He values friendship highly. To a rather stupid degree, in fact. I think he will be attached to you in no time.
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[At least he's self aware it's just something he doesn't know how to change.]
That is reassuring to hear...I have never been good at making friends but he seems abundantly friendly.
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[ He's just stating facts, but is glad Hermes isn't denying it. ]
You apparently liked one another enough to agree to a contract. Far easier than it was for me to find my way into their circle, really.
[ He forced his way in there, in the end. poor sports, they are... ]
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[Is he really that stubborn? If he stops and thinks about it perhaps he is...]
If I had not been affected I would never have been impulsive enough to ask him...but it is in both of our best interests to help one another.
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[ There will be no debating this fact! ]
As I said, I have every confidence in you, Hermes. More than you have in yourself.
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...It is an honour, no doubt. [One that ultimately doesn't matter anymore and yet...] May I be honest with you?
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[ Emet-Selch pauses a moment, and then sighs. It doesn't matter, he thinks. Whether Hermes becomes Fandaniel or not, Meteion is there, her sisters have been sent from the star, their paradise is already scripted for doom. ]
Your work on the Convocation would hardly bar you from being in Elpis. Several seats spend quite a fair amount of time there, need I point out the Words of Lahabrea, or Mitron? Even the Emissary spent time there. We would not be asking you to abandon your comforts. Far from it. You fret too much.
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[Since none of this matters. Nothing matters. Hello existentialism...]
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