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[flawful]

I would never dare compare the two.

_{[Look he's not suicidal (yet).]}

I really need this contract to work, Emet-Selch. What if he decides I am unpleasant to be around and leaves? I will be without anyone once more.

[snapping]

I suppose you wouldn't.

[ Yet...

Emet-Selch sighs a little. ]

Hermes, calm down. I am confident you will be fine. The only thing unpleasant about you is your fiercely insistent lack of self-esteem. [ And how you broke all the rules and triggered the final days ]

Besides, I have seen how he is with the company he keeps. He values friendship highly. To a rather stupid degree, in fact. I think he will be attached to you in no time.

[flawful]

I know I do not think very highly of myself...

_{[At least he's self aware it's just something he doesn't know how to change.]}

That is reassuring to hear...I have never been good at making friends but he seems abundantly friendly.

[snapping]

Indeed. That, mixed with your stubbornness, is a formidable combination.

[ He's just stating facts, but is glad Hermes isn't denying it. ]

You apparently liked one another enough to agree to a contract. Far easier than it was for me to find my way into their circle, really.

[ He forced his way in there, in the end. poor sports, they are... ]

[flawful]

Stubbornness?

_{[Is he really that stubborn? If he stops and thinks about it perhaps he is...]}

If I had not been affected I would never have been impulsive enough to ask him...but it is in both of our best interests to help one another.

[snapping]

Oh yes.

[ There will be no debating this fact! ]

As I said, I have every confidence in you, Hermes. More than you have in yourself.

[flawful]

I am touched that you have such faith in me, Emet-Selch.

[snapping]

You are worthy of the seat of Fandaniel. My faith is hardly unfounded.

[flawful]

_{[Ah. He pauses, falling silent on the other end.]}

...It is an honour, no doubt. _{[One that ultimately doesn't matter anymore and yet...]} May I be honest with you?

[snapping]

I prefer that you are, yes.

[flawful]

Would that I could return to the moment I was asked to accept my nomination...I wish that I would have the courage to reject it. Amaurot is an impressive city and nothing can compare to it...but it is an environment I have never found myself feeling comfortable in.

[snapping]

...

[ Emet-Selch pauses a moment, and then sighs. It doesn't matter, he thinks. Whether Hermes becomes Fandaniel or not, Meteion is there, her sisters have been sent from the star, their paradise is already scripted for doom. ]

Your work on the Convocation would hardly bar you from being in Elpis. Several seats spend quite a fair amount of time there, need I point out the Words of Lahabrea, or Mitron? Even the Emissary spent time there. We would not be asking you to abandon your comforts. Far from it. You fret too much.

[flawful]

That may be so...but I would not have been able to take Meteion with me, nor does the thought of replacing my mentor sit well - it causes me great distress to think about, even though I know it is pointless now.

_{[Since none of this matters. Nothing matters. Hello existentialism...]}

[snapping]

[ He really, really doesn't want to talk about Meteion. ]

Perhaps if you had gotten her approved as a concept...

[ The worst part about this is that he's both upset at Hermes and sympathetic toward him. The woes of a soft heart.... ]

But no. It is pointless now. And all in all what I was trying to say by mentioning your nomination is that you are an extraordinary being, Hermes. My faith in you is founded.

[flawful]

_{[The problem of getting Meteion approved is that...Hermes doubts she would've been. Worse still is that if she weren't approved she would be unmade and that was something he would never allow to happen.]}

I wish I could see in myself what you see in me.

[snapping]

[ He smiles wryly to himself. ]

You have your moments.

But yes, I wish for that as well.

[flawful]

Thank you, for having my best interests at heart.